Age: 16
Height: 5' 4''
Weight: 114.5
Dress Size: 1/2
Highest Weight: 121=(
Lowest Weight: 102

Goal Weight: 100
Favorite Diet Food:
Wheat Thins! Peanut butter, apples! =S

Favorite Binge Food:
Chocolate, pizza, Toaster Struddles. =(
Favorite Exercise:
Dance, X-country (skiing and running both), soccer and wrestling! =)

Favorite Thinspo?
Doesn't matter, as long as I can see their bones. =)

Where Do You Slip Up?
When it's dark. =(

When Did It Start?
8th grade.

Does Anyone Know?
My boyfriend, and a few girls I used to be friends with who think I've stopped. =)

Do You Want Help?
Not really..

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
Anywhere from 0-1,200 pending.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? 
A fatass.

Are You In A Relationship?
Yes I am. =)

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends? 

I'm the fat one.

Are You Depressed?
Sometimes.

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
Yes, last spring.

Ever Been To A Psychologist? 
Nope, I'm too poor. xD

I AM -
[x ] anorexic
[] ednos
[ x] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] starving yourself
[x ] participating in a fast


PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic/etc.


I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 100lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear/wore glasses.

[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[?] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I've had my trousers rip in public.

RELATIONSHIPS
[] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I'm addicted to self harm.
[] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.


[] I'm at my thinnest
[] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[] I weigh myself daily

[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[] I've taken diet pills
[] I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[ ] I've fainted from exhaustion

I've done:
[] Weed
[] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[ ] I condone pro-ana/mia sites

[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food

[x] I want to be this way
[] I don't want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[x] I don't want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment

[x] I'm doing this for me
[x] I'm doing this for someone
[x] I'm doing this to prove myself

Oh, what's that?

Sexy photos? Ha!

That's nice? I should care?

Why?

You think I want to know what goes on between you and

her? No. Thank you.

You inconsiderate bastard.

Why would you sit there and watch me like you do?

No denying it now sweetheart,

others have seen it. Not just me.

I swear, you keep that backstabbing

exfriend of mine away before something happens.

I swear if she smiles at me from across the room again,

I'm gunna hit her in the face.

That smirk.

I'm better than you, I've kept him were you couldn't.

Yeah well bitch,

after what he did to me,

I hope he fucking does the same thing to you.

You fucking whore.

Good ridence.

But then...I don't.

No matter how much I hate you,

I would never want that to happen to anyone else.

Not even you. Surprisingly.

So you can go ahead and think your superior.

Think that your better at being me than I am.

Take away my strengths, my friends, my past lovers.

Take everything, I don't need anything.

I have my safety net in place,

do you?